I never want to see it again.

I hate the feeling when your in such in a great mood and when all of a sudden in an instant second you see something you never thought you would see again. Thats what happened to me yesterday. Theres nothing more that I could say but I hate that place no matter what good outcome came out of it.I wonder why God wanted me to come back to place yesterday at of all days.I don't know why he wanted me to see it the day after I was talking about how much I hate go through it and make the decision on telling people what happened. Theres nothing more I could feel but sick to my stomach. That place was the place I never through I would see again and would never have to be near. It hurts me to even talk about this and knowing that sometimes it really gets to me. Im glad in a way that I saw where the place is actually located at so I know that I will never go to that area ever again.The fact that I saw the people who truly  make me sick is what hurts the most. I hate those people who think its okay to wave a sign around to other people and think that you have no feelings. No matter what even if you made a horrible decision then it was someones choice for the sake of them having a good life and for saving someone else's life through not go through hell. I was so sick to my stomach when I laid my eyes on them. I obviously didn't feel good at all day. I never want to see that place ever again! I will do anything to never have to see that place again and so I don't have see the hurt and and pain I went through that day physically and mentally and emotionally. Im happy I had the people who I cared about most there with me,but Ill never be able to forgive those people that think its okay for being bashed for something they did to save their own life.If there is one type of people I hate,its the people who think its okay to judge people for their own decisions and for what they believe.Nobody should ever hurt someone the way I have been hurt not only by them but some of my old friends who tell me how I was wrong for what I did. I made a decision based on the situation knowing that I wasn't able to go through something so hard and difficult that I know I never wanted to see bad for myself or for the person I had to go through it with. I wanted us to make a decision that showed that we were being true adults and were making the choice knowing we wouldn't be able to go through this and knowing that we needed to move on.I don't know the other person's emotions about this because of course some people are scared to show it,but I truly know that I will everyday be effected by this decision in a good and bad way.Im proud of myself no matter how much I could deny it to you that I choose to make this decision. I everyday think about what it would have been like if I didn't make this decision,and its a bittersweet feeling. I just know that I will never forget what those people yelled at to me.I will never forget that and I never have.



Ill write another post another time today or maybe tomorrow I just had to say this and it sucked being near there. I will forever love the people who helped me go through it no matter what.You mean the world to me for being there for me from then until now.


From,

Talia Marcel  <3


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