I wish school's understood that sometimes you go through hard things and that it will sometimes effect your schooling. I wish school's understood that we are all human and we have problems sometimes our problems will effect us in school.Well I guess last semester is what caused me to do so bad in school. I didn't do good at all. I was just so sad from things that were going on in my life,I didn't care to do good in school.I had to go through a hard time this whole semester.Not only in my personal life but even in school.I had horrible teachers these semester who were barely in school to help their students out.Two of them didn't even check their e-mails.I even had to switch math teachers and that took a month for me to switch cause I kept filling out the wrong papers,which made get behind in my class.One teacher didn't even care to help me pass the class which made me have to leave the class. The other teacher was a part-time teacher and doctor.She didn't even know what she was teaching and the only way you got grades were your test.I took all my tests and studied for them but she didn't even give me credit for anything which made me not pass the class. I had a horrible GPA this semester,and now I see what I get for getting horrible grades. I feel like maybe I shouldn't even go to school this semester. I feel like maybe I should just be working and maybe if im lucky next semester to get help ill go to school.Im pretty much a freshman in college until I finish with my math class,which I cant even pass.Its basic math and I cant even pass it im so bad at math.I tried so hard to do good this first year,but everything just kept piling up this semester especially dealing with my personal life.It just sucks having to get this feeling and knowing it was all from stuff you did the past.I know now that I am doing better,at least trying to get better,and I know that this semester if Im still going to school I really need to put in my all and try the hardest I can. Like I said on my title,sometimes you hit a pothole and this past semester I hit a pothole.I cant get mad at myself or I shouldn't be angry,because trust me when your going through some hard things in your life you cant just ignore it. I know I will try my hardest from now on and I have to promise myself and to everyone on here that I will.I just hope I will get some help with paying my tuition cause if I don't,here goes to getting 3 jobs.
What every girl has a problem with,is boys. First of all I would like to say that guy that I thought I liked,I don't really like him,I like him more as a person that I want to hang out with as a friend.I really felt like I needed the feeling of going out with another guy but,but truly I feel like maybe I just need time for myself.Thats something I defiantly need.I officially know that the guy I wanted to read this so badly,is reading this. I don't know if he'll continue to read it from now on seeing how pretty I write about him a lot,but I don't ever do it to hurt him or to make him look like a bad person.His not a bad person,his an amazing person.Ill never deny that,no matter how mad or what I had to see and how much hurt I went through.I forgive him for everything.I seriously always will,because if it wasn't for him,I wouldn't be who I am today.Like I said,he will always be my best friend.If we talk now,or if we decide to talk later,I will seriously continue talking.Its like a friendship you have with your guy friend or girl friend,you get into fights all the time sometimes horrible ones,but in the end if you guys are truly best friends,you will resolve the problems,forgive each other,and move on.Thats how I will always feel with him.No matter what,he is my best friend and I love him no matter what and I will support him and help him no matter what.I don't feel like the reason why Im on here is because of him only.I write it for myself,and of course all of you guys, knowing how this helps to think about situations and its great knowing that ill be able to look back on these forever.Whenever you post anything on the internet,it will forever be on the internet.Im glad this will be on the internet,I would love if maybe in the next few years,I could still go and read back on these.I just hope that things don't get more crazy as I continue to grow up,which I know it will,but Im fine with the technology today seriously.I can use a few more things,but seriously I am happy how it is right now. I feel like I have always loved being on the computer,and its funny how whenever I sit and write with a journal,I have nothing to say,but when Im on the computer,I could write a whole book maybe even a few if I really wanted to.Anyways,I just hope that if he does continue to write this,now what Im about to say is for him and I don't care if anyone sees this and thinks im ridiculous or think why is she doing this.Its cause I don't care,and this is for him to really see,and everything Im about to say,hell understand why im saying it.Im telling him that I talk about you because I don't regret our relationship,and everything we did in our relationship,was an everyday lesson to me.You are now apart of my life forever and always even if we decide to never talk again,no matter what.You have changed me to who I am today,and our relationship helps me with a lot of situations I deal with sometimes after our break up. I love you forever and always,and you know I am always here for you and you mean so much to me,that I want to help you and like I said before Im always here to talk to you. <3
I sometimes I think about the saying "Its happens for a reason,"and sometimes I really don't like the saying.I always wonder why it does happen for a reason.Sometimes I feel like the saying is too brood of a saying.Sometimes I wonder why when it happens for a reason,it usually means for the best,but you still go through hard things or even good things.I just don't get why it has to happen.I wish sometimes we really have the power to control what we do in our life.I know that we obviously do in most situation's but I do feel like a lot of it we have don't have the power to control it.Theirs somethings in our life we have no control.I feel its like we cant control when something physical happens to us,like how I have eczema. I had no control of not having it.I have it and I go through it everyday,but it obviously didn't happen for a reason.I just sometimes wish things don't happen for a reason,and it just happens because it just needs to happen.I feel like that's a quote I would rather hear is Its happens because it happened not because of a reason.Why would somebody feel good if they thought of it the whole time as it happened for a reason. I feel like maybe Ill be starting saying it happened because it happened and not because it happened for a reason.Im going to actually do that today,and maybe you should try to do it also.Think of a situation you go through today,and think of it as it didn't happened for a reason,it happened because it happened and you don't have control over it.If you do decide to do that challenge,the tell me about it.Let me know if you liked thinking like that,or you really feel like you need to go back to thinking about "It happens for a reason." I wonder if who ever decides to do this challenge,will end up thinking im crazy.haha I just want you to try it and see if it effects you in anyway.Im going to do it,and Ill let you know in the next post if it effected me in anyway.
Well the days are getting closer and closer to closing my facebook.Its crazy how I made this decision so fast,and now its really going to happen.By the way if my \friend see's this,I want to know how she was able to send me a friend request on my blogspot facebook profile.I thought I blocked it.haha I guess ill let her slide as one of my only friends on Talia Marcel's Blogspot.Its not like im really on facebook so for everyone who think it's cheating its not! If it is,its okay I make up my own rules,but like I said its not cheating! :) well anyways I have to say this cause Im seriously getting closer to delete it so I need I really need your help! I would first like to thank everybody who has joined my facebook blog group (http://www.facebook.com/groups/220049844705230) its means a lot!! I would like to mention again if you join that page and share it with your friend's on your wall If I get 200 people to join it,Ill be giving away a 25 dollar gift certificate and If I get 300 people to join it,Ill be giving away a 50 dollar gift certificate.Im dead serious about it and Im going to give it to you with my own money (like I said in my old post I DON'T get paid by Blogger.) Im just trying to grow my blog in anyway I can just for the fact that I love when I see people reading it. Im so happy to see that my blog yesterday got 55 hits and it I just wrote it that day! :) Like I said,PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help me in anyway you can!!! I will be writing my personal messages to everyone on my current facebook,to say my goodbye (tears),just kidding.So if your lucky enough,youll be getting a personal message from me! :)
Okay I need seriously go out and start my day.So I would just like to leave you with an amazing quote I guess you can say I saw at the couple's house that I babysit for.If you saw the picture on my current facebook,then that's what Im about to say,but honestly I think its a true saying.
Laugh when you can,Apologize when you should and Let go of what you can't change. Kiss Slowly,Forgive Quickly,Play Hard,Take Chances,Give everything,and have no regrets.Life is too short to be anything but Happy! :)
Until next time. . . . (please share my blog's facebook page) =)
I love you guys with all my heart and be kind to one another! :)
Love Always,
Talia Marcel <3
Taliamarcelblogs@gmail.com
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